Wednesday, October 31, 2007 Wednesday, October 31, 2007
A Miserable Day ):
Today i woke up at 2plus by a phone call asking me to go to the office that i had worked before to collect my salary . the person `gl ' add on some words that make me felt uncomfortable . so , my first reaction was ; huh ? can triffany help me collect it and pass to me ?the answer of course is a NO . so , i ate tom yam noodle ,bathe and set off to the place by MRT . when i reached the place , when i enter in the office , i felt so 'low'i've checked thing dhat i have to and took my salary . i thought after that i can jus went home with triffany . but , triffany have to do somethings before she go home . but , lucky , florence let her off very soon . and i felt the office feeling very relief . when on the way back , i don't know really what had happen . triffany and i kept silent . the worse thing is i don't know what to speak to her . i have a kind of feeling that , i don't have real friend . she is a person that give me a feeling that she is a person that i cannot be with her . maybe she's too attractive and she can manage her attitude in a very good way . for example ; i don't know why i always quarrel with joseph but she don't . maybe it's because i've a bad attitude that many people cannot tolerate me . so , i think that i should change my rotten attitude and maybe from this , i can a real friend . thinking of the past ... adeline , jerrine , triffany and me were so good once before . buy maybe in some ways , or maybe it's the brain making fun of me , we were separate and now i felt so regret . for me , i think that my friendship won't last long because i'm a person that don't know how to handle things in a proper way and maintain things well . sorry adeline and jerrine . although triffany and i were 7years of friendship , but i still don't really know her well . in fact , i don't know what she is thinking and what kind of person is she !she always that adorable . maybe her cuteness make her alot of true friend which were always surrounding her and entertain her whenever she is down . i believe that i'm not a good friend . but i have good friend . but yet i still didn't treasure when they were around me . when they are really gone , i start to regret and reflecting what the hell am i thinking that time . from now onwards , i should be independent and not relay on others as no hard work equal no earn . and i should change my bloody attitude and control it before it get worse . there is a chalet at 13Nov , i don't know whether should i go . because now I'm not really good with one of my friend . and i have a bad feeling that things won't get along so smoothly that day . but , hope things will go well smoothly and no one get up sad after the chalet . because , the way you treat someone , one day someone will treat you back that way . things that are done , don't regret because things won't change after doing .i need someone to make me felt that i am not ugly and not felt out . *am i really too ugly to be loved ? )':