Thursday, November 1, 2007 Thursday, November 01, 2007
cOnfUsed ):
today woke up at 5.3opm ! omg man , i have waste half of my day ! ):when i woke up , no sms , no missed calls . so sad ! lols . the first thing is to bursh teeth and find food to eat ! xD *hungry*later , bathe and start using computer . at around 7plus , triffany called me and told me that today she gone out with her friends and know some friends that she had played basketball before . from the tone that she spoke , she sounds very excited and happy about it . and my sensativeness work again . questions surrounded my brain again . T.Ti was thinking ; why is she always so lucky and happy ? because she's cute and adorable and pretty and she's very humonours ? unlike me , im ugly , UNadorable , attitude sux , not humour at all . that's why my situation is always so sad and unlucky . no friends , no love , no laughter , no listening ears and even no 'zu jian' .and i really thinks that this world is really unfair . really only people that has looks can stand out and have his/her rights ?and ugly people can only do things that people will look down at ?but often i will comfort myself and tell myself 'jiefang, you are born lidat , so don't gramble and jus face it , as i believe that i will change and look more like a human after operations.'and the most important things is that , others can look down on you , but you can never look down at urself . being alone is not ashmenful but you have to get used to it . must relay things urself but not others . because , other might hurt you and ue will injure easily and what it from that incident , you cannot stand up ? you cant regret too.somehow , i think finding a good friend is hard , as friends wasn't all ture to you . beware .she's the most longest friend i had , but it doesn't means that she treat me the best and she treat me as a friend . things are confusing . not as easy as what i've always been thinking . things has been bothering me nowadays . joseph , triffany , adeline , eunice , they are all my good friends . but , i don't know what were they thinking . really . i really hope that i can get close to them and each other can 'ti liang' .if every girl can don't be that sensative , i think that a friendship will really last . outside friends , friends that will influence . friends that only wanna be with people that will make himself/herself happy , friends that don't wanna try to understand each other , this kinf of friend really CANNOT last . as , i think that nothing nothing can really make me more ill than friendship . i really hopes that everythings can get back to normal as soon as possible . maybe being emo is not a bad things , but a good things at times . wow , for the past few post that i have enter , it sounds like nothing is happy but only saddness things surounding me . hahas . but i think nothing really can make me happy . but , now i think i have to crack my mind and think of some better things that are not sad to talk with , so that people viewing my blog won't get too bored . hahas . you know , alot of people have been complaining about the wording too small for them too read . ahahs . maybe i did it on purpose . because i don't want anyone to really know what i am really thinking . as i never really spoke up to my friends . well , 4 more day is my good friend adeline's birthday . i don't know what should i get for her .but i just wish that she will get a suprise birthday gift and really hope she will like it . although i think we are not as close as last time now . hahas . but i still wish that she will be happy everyday and live her way of life . no one can change easily , unless under a very couraging and good envirement . well , i think i don't have much things to write le . so i'll end here . *takkare friends (:Labels: dont't think so much ; so live will be more happy .[: