Tuesday, September 23, 2008 Tuesday, September 23, 2008
♥ Kim Heechul (:

today i wake up by myself ! when school carrying a heavy moodless mood . because triffany never say hi to me. lols. no lahs. but just feel so emotionless and restless.sad about something. but the thing i shouldn't mention about it. hahas . afterall, now i am feeling much better than this morning. after 2 days of reflection on what i've done , i thinks that i was at fault for ignoring my grandmother. afterall, she is just worried about me going oversea without family members. buy, i am still angry whenever i see her. because she always don't trust me nor believe me -.-hais. means that i wasn't a person who can be trust and believe. chey ...maybe i will not go to korean with adeline le bahs ); because my family wants to bring me to korea next year. but i wants to see the MBC fliming studio !! argh . forget it. i am sad -_-todau in school, i was kind of emo due to my restless mood. hahas . luckily no people come and ask me questions . hahas . if not i will be mad xDi was thinking, i have some characteristic same as sunmi . she's quite weird and emo and she get jealous of somethings easily. and, i was same as her ! i get jealous on something easily. i get mood swing if my friends were not in good mood. whatever it is, i will never say it out. unless i can't tolerate it anymore. hahas .well, i think i shall end here because i wanted to bathe and sleep ! tired . hahas . have to study my biology fast fast ! too many things i have not study . moreover, with friends who are so lifeless and hardworking, i feel extremly stress ! F***K!byebyeeeeeeeeee (; *i was jus releasing my stress . LOL .To friend, every different person have different can have millions and billions ways of thinking. i was very sensative and my thinking was kind of one-sided. but your's wasn't . i need close friends and girlfriends to enlighten or cheer up my day. but for you, your mobile phone or any person or any man will enlighten your day. this really makes me wonder what close friends are for. you make me feel that we are so distant and we aren't close friends but just a passerby friend. i never know what you're up to and what kind of attitude you have on different people. but i hope you can be more truthful and really be yourself infront of all people. if not i will be feeling so uneasy as if you are transform into another person . maybe i will be pissed off someday and really ignore you and hack care everything that concern you. i wanted to be sure and secure that you are a close friend not a passerby. again, i will get jealous easily on something just like sunmi will get jealous on sohee if boys love to get close to soheebut luckily, sohee dont wants to get close to all the boys but sunmi (; sunmi feels secure .