Tuesday, August 11, 2009 Tuesday, August 11, 2009
HELLOS :D
i dunno what had happened.
i cant see those colours that can change fonts.
argh, my blog gonna get more colourless. and it is making me moodless.
&just to realise, blogging only when i felt moody,
is this somewhere that i can only express my ture and real feeling & thinking out?
my god. i need more spaceeeeeee.
nowadays i keep having those not good feeling.
as in there were things that bothers me.
And also some sort like compress my heart.
still remember one of the night, i suddenly have difficulties in breathing.
heart pump super fast that i can feel the pumping of it as if i am having heart attack.
So moody. what am i suppose to do to get rid of this mood.
dunno what's the problem, dunno what had happened.
nobody is there for me to talk to, no listening ears, no advise.
how long can i still struggle to get through..?
can i really survive like this?
I am a super suay person.
secondary i didn't meet the correct person..
now, in poly i still didn't meet the correct person..
joining db because i thought triffany is joining.
after joining, something inside db makes me don't wanna leave and change to hiphop.
now, the thinking strike me again...
joining db is it correct or it is another regret?
not that i don't like the sport, it is something else.
words can't explain the feelings...
it seems that nothing can help me...
thinking of it everytime makes me unhappy and irritated.
why can't people cant just kick away those bad habits.
no pain, no gain. only allows improvement, disallow deprovement.
getting somethings that you wants with hardworking.
if getting something without paying out those sweats and hardwork, wth is that?
no wants would wants his/her hardwork to get shared with people that doesn't deserve it.
am i always the one who is the problem and seeing things wrongly?
or am i not suitable for the situation.
i need a change in myself, mylife and myeverything.
being quiet is good, even though it really bored me.
but it is better then tlaking more and making ownself unhappy,angry.
people like me must as well die off from this planet, this earth.
me, a useless bum... no one likes.
shyt, the messy thinking was in my head now.
stop, i need a break from everything.
you are causing me stress.
i can take it no more.
please.. stop.
maybe we just aren't suitable to be like that......
Jiefang needs someone to chat with,
Jiefang needs someone to be her listening ears,
Jiefang needs someone to support her,
Jiefang needs someone to encourage her,
Jiefang needs someone to help her,
Jiefang needs someone to pull her up whenever she fell,
Jiefang needs someone to understand her abit,
Jiefang needs someone to KNOW her.
BUT... is there really someone that really knows her?
SHYT. fml-
now nothing seems to get through in my brain,
no more brain cells, need something to cheer me up.
when i need someone, where is everyone?
earth is spinning, but i am still at the same place, not improving.
S.O.S!
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tomorrow having training...
hope i can survive tomorrow w/o susan's present. :(
BYEBYES~
&takecares.(: