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2010-07-21T09:16:00.000+08:00

2010-07-21T09:14:00.000+08:00

The time when you stopped talking to me, It's the time i realise that someone new has stepped into your life and replaced me.

I'm sad, and you didn't know how i felt.

But, even with this, life still has to goes on.

Without me, your life gonna be better.

As for me, without you, I'm alright. Because as times goes by, this habit of talking to you will slowly fate off.

And I believe by then, there will be another special person who will be stepping into my small little house.

For now, I'll just have to bare my feelings, control my emotions and thoughts, and wait for the person to appear.(: No matter how long it takes, I'm not gonna give up but keep going forward. Because there is no way that I can turn back, ever again.

Since everyone has past, now I wants to keep this past at the bottom of me, and remind it there, not gonna think of it. (:

I've done it once, so I can sure do it twice.

I can do it. lai. (x

2010-02-28T19:48:00.001+08:00

This is just totally out of random! :D kekeke.
more on tumblr now! :b

2010-02-16T23:38:00.001+08:00

The 布鲁斯Ninja Juniors (Bruce Ninja Juniors) - US :B

AVAILABLE:

Jiefang - 布鲁斯.du

Susan - 布鲁斯.soh

Hayden - 布鲁斯.ong

Amelia - 布鲁斯.lee

Priscilla - 布鲁斯.Teo

Janine - 布鲁斯.Lym

Amy - 布鲁斯.Lion

Amirah - 布鲁斯.Rah

Ella - 布鲁斯.Ella

Sweeting - 布鲁斯.Peh

Cassandra - 布鲁斯.Lim

Helena - 布鲁斯.Helena

UNAVAILABLE: (I MISS YOU GIRLS LA HOR!!!)

Hafizah - 布鲁斯.Peanut

Leon - 布鲁斯.Chua

Dian - 布鲁斯.Mon

BYE! :D

im more on tumblr now!

sorry blogg, lovelove!

2010-02-10T01:22:00.002+08:00

I've been tumblr-ing.

But, blog, i will not neglect you much :b

so here is a post in return :x

TIRED-

bye cognitive;

hello creative concept!

GOODLUCK-

peeps!

TOMORROW;

going gym.

JIAYOU;

jianfei &

for rest of the UTs.

STOP!

thinkign over wild &

making yourself upset.

BECAUSE;

she's not worth it!

changing to a he.

BYE!

nights.

2010-02-08T21:37:00.001+08:00

SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE...

making a tumblr!

somehow i find it so cool la.

maybe because of those photo xD

but, it's gonna be a new environment!

& i'm scare ;b

BUT, i shall try it out! yea!

tumblr! here i comeeee! :X

2010-02-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

TOO STRESS?

i've been eating alot when im suppose to be training.

even when i'm studying, and reading through the 6P, im eating.

all in my mind was you, db and food.

im so excited for this saturday. the reuion dinner.

again, it was food, eating again.

I've been thinking of going someone house for gathering.

eating and watching t.v.

steamboat will be even better! :B

OVERALL, im fat now.

but still, thinking of food.

and i am not moving ):

i needa push myself for gym, run alrdy!!

i felt that my stamina dropped alot.

alright, end here. im sad!! VERY SAD!!

now is UT period,

Holiday calling for me.

and im making my lovely blog ALIVE AGAIN!

iloveyou bloggiieeee =x\

BYE! CIAOS~

2010-02-08T17:38:00.002+08:00

SAY GOODBYE TO...

B101 - Enthrupreneurship! :D

SAY HELLO TO...

G102 - Cognitive and Process II! D:

IT IS ALL ...

sian-ness only.

2010-02-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

I KNOW THAT

my blog like very emo now

but i can't help

get well soon blog

iloveyou.

2010-02-07T23:56:00.001+08:00

SOMETIME I JUST ...

felt that i'm not me.

2010-02-06T21:56:00.001+08:00

SOMETIME...

i wonder if my mother knows me well,

am i allow to think this way?

sigh-

2010-02-06T02:07:00.001+08:00

SUDDENLY...
I realise that I actually don't know you at all.
back to square 1 ):

2010-02-04T00:01:00.002+08:00

HEY!

IT's ME AGAIN!

BYE CUTE BUNG AMELIA LEE !

HELLO LAO ZHA BO AMELIA LEE !

BUT...

STILL MONLEY FOREVER !

ALSO...

MY 'BF'/"KORKOR" FOREVER ! *we have complicated relationships, opps :X

AND...

I'M HERE TO SAY...

I TAKE OVER AMELIA CUTE PLACE =X

SINCE, SHE RETIRE AND BECOME LAO ZHA BOR .

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

BYE! :D

2010-02-03T23:36:00.004+08:00

ANNYEONG! :D

This person is who uh???
O.O

Firstly, i wanna say:
I AM NOT EMO ANYMORE!
but im TIRED LA! tskkk.

Secondly, i wanna say:

I WANNA BUY 2 GUINEA PIGS!

but i am still in the progress of saving money. -.- sian!

Thirdly, i wanna say:

I AM SUPER DUPER FAT!

but i have no time to run -_- + unhealthy diet la! nabei -.-"

Fourly, i wanna say:
TOMORROW IS A SPECIAL DAY!
because tomorrow is thursday. having photoshop practical! ): scareddd.

Fifthly, i wanna say:

I HAVEN STUDY FOR MY UT!

should say is not prepared! not haven started revising :B

Sixthly, i wanna say:

I'M TIRED NOW! VERY!!!

therefore i'm going to bed now! :D

Lastly before i end, i wanna ANNOUNCE something:
GOODBYE cutebung-AMELIA LEE!!!
hello laozhaboLEE in about 5mins time =D

happy birthday in advance! :b,

sorry lahh, wish again tmr,okay! xD

cause, i doni't want to wish you now! :B

HAHAHAHA!

MONKEY LEEEEEE BF! LOVES :D

alright, END FOR TODAY :B

BYEBYES~

&takecares. (:

2010-02-01T12:49:00.001+08:00

I'M NOT ALRIGHT.

I wants to ask, but I can't.

I know, but I pretend not to.

2010-01-30T15:55:00.002+08:00

I'M TIRED

my mind has to stop working.

2010-01-26T13:37:00.001+08:00

I'M SUPER FAT!

i need time to run many many!

2010-01-25T12:32:00.001+08:00

I'M FAT!

and this makes me sad. ):

2010-01-18T15:29:00.005+08:00

Hello(:

I wants this hairstyle & hair colour! (:

please comment on my tagboard to give comments if i shall cut & dye this hair.. :B

btw, this person is JongHyun, korean boy band, SHINee(:

Cute right! me likes :D he had a good voice as well(:

shall see his performs at youtube!(:

*just imagine his hair on my face -.-

I WANTS TO HAD MY HAIRCUT SOON! tsk!

woot, I felt so tired in class now.
Later still have training.
don't know if I'm able to survive anot.
i'm abit hungry now. but i got bread!
but i'm too fat already. ):
yesterday my aunt told me that my butt had slim down abit.
But, i felt that my tummy is still very big and fattish -.-
when im sitting down, the layer is still very thick! omggggg.
i think it's because sat and sun I've ate too much alrdy.
omg, i needs to control myself!
and this week, im gonna run run run, eat less less less!
I hope that I will perform like last week, and not get bored.
because all those running is for JIANFEI! tskk-.-
alright, an hour more to training. tired!
my lesson haven end, andmy eye is swollen.
it's giving me pain and itchness.
wonders what had happened to my eye!
alrights, shall end here (:
*looking forward to see susan later! HAHA!

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2010-01-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hellos!

So time no blog, let me start with a funny picture ! :B

Sexy Gabriel ! :D

nowadays like no time to blog. haha

I'm trying my best to pay full attention in class,

trying my best to understand the problem statement,

and also trying my best to speak up more in order to get good grades.

I didn't get A in this semster. It's really horrible.

And also, I'm trying my best to train my own stamina.

I know that my running had deproved, as well as my mental.

Therefore using the lossing weight as my motivation,

and also what my idol had told me,

plus beverly's words, i will keep pushing myself and try to improve.

Afterall, it's all for my own good!

I wants a good body, that don't have fatty tummy!

I wanted to save many many money!

and to get what i wanted to come true,

i needs to control my spending of money.

and the food intake i eat!

one day, 2 proper, quite healthy meal! one week spent less than $30!

Chinese New Year is coming, and I need to buy new clothes!

And i wants to get my hair cutted & maybe dyed! :D

but still thinking in progress (:

Since I'm in the media arts courses, that uses adobe,

I hope that I can get a DSLR and a MACBOOK.

And have to sleep early so that I will have enough energy to survive in school and training,

and most importantly, at least 7hrs sleep in order to not get heavier and fatter! :D

I wanted to promise myself that I'll train and run if I've nothing on that day! :D

cause i want my fat fat body to be slim slim as soon as possible! *desparated!

Well, I've thought of my own training program! :X hahahas,

which is. running, do abs, do a bit of gym, and run again! (: *loss fats loss fats!!

most importantly is to control my diet! tsk!

Alright, I shall end here for now, need to get more rest for tomorrow!

Studying web & new media communication,

Training together as a girls team again! :D

School left with 15days to go!(:

And, UT3 is around the corner!):

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2010-01-12T14:34:00.006+08:00

Hellos ;D

woot, today it's cognitive!

and there's only 4groups.

again, don't know why, i'm super tired again.

during the first break, i meet eileentan & i fall aslp while she did her worksheet.

now presenting was the 3th group. next will be mines, which is the last group.

after that, hope that i will have energy for 6P and hope ir end fast!

and then i can find hayden and go for a jog, then go home!

then bathe, do RJ, have early dinner, and sleep early today!

so that I'll have energy for tomorrow.

entrepreneurship and of course, training! :)

alright, shall end here. (:

AHH!Not forgetting...

my camwhore photo! (ytd night)

& Thanks PEANUT(hafizah) for the name chain!

love it very much!

It's so BLING,

the belt is so PURPLEish

and it's so GIRL!

but i like it super alot!

because it's from YOU!

THANKS & ILOVEYOU! :D

END!:B

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2010-01-11T15:07:00.003+08:00

Hellos (;

`19days of school days to go before ending my year1, & starts my holidays...

I'm so tired.
last week the 3days open house, and sunday trng, after that went out,
and this week starts again with waking up early for school,
ending late because of db trainings and self trainings,
and i fall aslp in class today for 2-3times.
in order to improve, something have to be spent. which is time&effort&determination.
actually today i don't wants to go for training, but after talking to idol, i want to go for it.
Thank you & I'll remember it in mind :D
when you're not with us, i remember u in my heart.
you're my motivation, and always my idol. (:

& susan lovelove is training hard too!
so i will improve with her even though i might be slower,
BUT, as long as i don't give up, everything is possible! (:

Therefore i shall end here with something that I'll remember!(:

It doesnt matter how much or how fast I reach there, what matter most is
that I don't give up & keep going on.(:

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2010-01-06T15:12:00.002+08:00

4Minutes - I Won't Give You

2009-12-16T18:05:00.003+08:00

Secert - I Want You Back (:

2009-12-14T09:02:00.000+08:00

2009-12-13T01:56:00.002+08:00

Hellos :)

My Lucky Star is nice :D
time to go to bed!
tomorrow training ,
and study for ut!
it;s a must! :D
going to, try to slp now!

BYE!:D

2009-12-11T13:37:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)

Today: *argh, dont have the habit of putting my name into the image i've made!

aw, had a pizza as my lunch!
and now drinnk orea ice blend.
today i finished my slide quite fast! :)
went to the booth awhile, and now back.
today is friday hor! super happy :D
but later have ut!
after ut im going to it helpdesk to download master collection!:D
then going to booth again? i think.
and, gotta wait for susan soh :D
she having adventure learning.
when she's done, we're going for the ave9 jog :)
even though i can't jog at fast speed, but i shall start jogging as many as possible.
start from slow speed, then slowly i shall increase my pace.
i believe i will jog from the starting point and end at the ending point together as a group.
since i've drop so a lot, therefore i have to improve damn a lot too.
alright, it's going to be 1.45pm (:
presentation starting soon i guess.
so. hahahhaahhaah!!!

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-12-11T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hello:)

Naturally Shy Girl (NSG-jiefang) , Yiwen, Naturally Unstable Girls (NUG-triffany), Naturally Funny Uncle (NFU-wenjian)

Went to NYP at 7pm. reached there about 7.20pm.
went to da bao mac with NUG & NFU. (:
ate outside their class, level 4!
chat and laughed! :D
i can talk, means i like them!
after eating, back to their class,
triffany decided to photo booth!
makes me wanna buy macbook only! tskk.
alright, off to slp! tomorrow have UT!
DMA, haven study ): and hate tomorrow's module, creative concept ):

I'll visit triffany more! :) ppromise! hahahah

NIGHTS!(:

2009-12-10T18:37:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)

My mood of the day:

today i didn't go school!
due to the tiredness + achness.
sorry people!

i am just a lousy person.

off to find triffany!

BYE!

2009-12-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hellos ):

i deproved a lot on my phyiscal.
It's really time for me to be condition,
start up, and go.

arghh, needa get a sport shoe asap!
my toes are screaming for blister free!
anyways, i'm lazy to do RJ.
so, i off to bed now!
tomorrow cognitive! can die...

*how i wish i could spend 5mins with you...(:
you makes me :) naturally.

will be seeing the unstable girl tomorrow! yeayea!
Happy max, eating mac too! :B
tomorrow, recuitment day!
join us, and i'll love you girls! *keke

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-12-08T14:53:00.004+08:00

Hellos! :D

It's 8Decembe2009,

and it is my dar lion, AMY's 17th birthday! :D

"Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to AMY<333,

Happy birthday to U!

loveloves & hughugs!"

it's been quite a few days that i have not been blogging!
Well, nowadays was really busy for me! ):
somemore, im starting to get sick of coming to school.
furthermore, i ain't really happy to be in my current class.
And, most importantly is that i dunno why am i getting so tired everyday!
no matter i have enough not not enough slp, im just tired ttm!

My 'timeline' :
1. Later's DB training.
2. Study for tomorrow's cognitive UT.
3. Cognitive's UT tomorrow
4. Tomorrow's DB training.
5. Study for Digital Media Art's UT.
6. Dinner with Triffany darling.
7. Digital Media Art's UT on Friday.
8. My own 'mini project'.
9. Saturday's Wet training.
10. Study for Entrepreneurship's UT!! ***
11. Sunday's Wet training.
12. Study for Entrepreneurship's UT again!! ***
13. Entrepreneurship's UT on monday!! ***
14. Monday's training.
15. 15Dec2009, HOLIDAYS STARTS! *3weeks only la dey!
16. Wednesday training.
17. 18Dec, CRUISE! *relax time! :D
18. ***go IT helpdesk to install adobe master collection!!!***

alrights, lesson had ended!
time for me to eat awhile, study awhile, doRJ, and go for training with susan!
so....

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-12-03T13:48:00.005+08:00

Hello!:D

edited some photos yesterday since i didn't attend the lesson:X

edit for hayden ong mao tan!

hahahaha, not bad uh, the person who edit it xD

[above] Hayden& Lydia

[above] Klaryse &Hayden

[above] Cheng & Hayden

and, dont you think that all those photo that i've edited, looks like couple?!

&, why no have my face?!

cause i haven receive!

if not mines confirm most chio one la! tsk

end here, presenting...

BYE!(:

2009-12-01T14:23:00.006+08:00

Hellos! :D

Photo of the day :B *did during 3th meeting!

weee~ today i create another blog for this module,
web & new media communication problem 09!
haha, and, yeah, wanna see it not?! tsktsk
here's the link: http://n-crimeprevention.blogspot.com/
hahaha, plain, but not bad la hor.. tskkkk!
hahaha, today saw pretty boy! *keke
super pretty lah deyyy! tsk. HAHA. + cute :D
now other groups were presenting. and, im blogging :X
sian, later still got dunno what gathering.
confirm wont be happy after that. zzz
i wants to go home!!! ):
& i like my today's faci super alot! :D

ohyaa, & thanks elaine & sharon for helping me last night. thankyou.

BYE![:

2009-12-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

Hellos :)

today, not feelign well after training.
*sighh, im indeed weak.
it's time for me to work hard.
not only for me, but for all juniors(:
let's all work hard together, alright!

sometime is the people around,
the environment, the situation,
makes me dont dare to...
hahaha! hopes things wont turn too colourful.
because, i will hold my steps back.
because, i want is simple & quiet.

BYE! :D

2009-11-30T01:32:00.004+08:00

I treat beverly kim as a caring senior.
& no more. okay! ;)
2-3 people thought i'm in love with bev -.-
Just that got a period of time,
beverly listen to me and advise me.
Thanks bei-fei-li KIM & grats on ur polite!(:

Furthermore, i'm straight!
hahahah.

if you don't know me,
im a person who is suitable to be alone & quiet.
now, i'll just shut up & train hard.
my brain is blank now.
no comments, nothing.
believe or not.
as long as others is really okay,
im okay with anything.
serious.

BYE![:

2009-11-29T16:08:00.003+08:00

MY CUTE BEAR - SUMING :D

I WANT THIS WHITE BEAR TOO. HAHA. CUTE MAXZX!

awww, im super fat!
how to loss fats uh?
and how to loss weight uh?!
walau eh, stress!
i need more determination to stop myself from eating.
HAHAHA, today i ate one packet of noodle, and one packet of chip.
and dinner i just ate 2 plates of rice, cause got my favourite vegetable! tsk!
super fat hor.
tomorrow gym, hope to run more xD.
hahahaha, and, hoping that gym will have more time!
so that i can do more stations.
and, less people pl0x~~
tomorrow left paddlers only. sighh, SUSAN, I MISS U!
alright, i have to find tips to loss weight & fats healthy now!
hahahaha, byeeee ~

): I AM FAT!

2009-11-29T16:01:00.000+08:00

2 cute photos of liang's dog :B

2009-11-29T15:49:00.009+08:00

Hellos :)

ANYONE IS FREE ON 5DECEMBER?!

aw, feel guilty for not going gym with g.tan!
but im seriously too lazy to travel to tampines :X
how i wish i have a car! ahaha, but if i have, will i be lazy too?
well, finally 18, and i wants to learn driving!
but, worry that i couldn't pass the theory part. LOL.
today it's sunday! tomorrow is monday!
digital Media Arts! ha, and having training tomorrow!
no susan, somehow demorailsed me. sian ttm-
hope for a better tomorrow (:
i needs a brain-wash :)
sometimes, too many times makes me wonders too far~
nowadays i just feel like blogging. HAHA!
this means, something really strike me? xD
nahh~ im bullshyt-ing agn. LOL.
*CUT!!!

awww, waiting for the taiwan's show to post online tomorrow!
super exciting now. hahaha!
aww, into lala lang again. ~

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-11-29T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hellos :D

aw, super tired!
well, went to macrichite and support beverly! :D
brought her chocolate. make her fat! :B
and, today i brought a sweet, sibei cute!
it's like a gingerbread man lidat. NICE ALSO LA! :D
& went bugis and i finally brought my ADDIDAS BLUE BAG :D
i'm lovin it!
alright end here! sunday, going gym with GABRIEL TAN DA XIONG!
hahaha. GOODNIGHTXZXZX!

well, here to share a song too (:

`wonders why im always so shy infront of her ... =\

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-11-28T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hellos :D

Can You Feel My HeartBeat..?

THANKYOU!
-Loves: Adeline, Bryan, Khetwee & Irvann (:
THANKYOU FOR THE SKULL-CANDY EARPHONE! LOVEIT!
haha, went kbox with them today(; again, i was late! :D
after that, head to bugis, and i knew the price of the addidas i want!
$59.90, and kunnie gonna buy for me! lovelove:D
although the bag is commonly used by people nowadays, but it looks great :B
After that, we headed to find the steamboat restaurant.
after seeing the environment, irvann and i decided to change venue.
then, we went 'sweensen', when looking at the menu, we thought of another place!
therefore, we walked out of it! MALU-ed!
and, we ate at a resturant! FISHY! but not full -_-
after eating, went bugis street for awhile and headed home(:
thank ADELINE for listening to me! :D loveloves!

After talking to her, really many flashback came into my mind.
what happened during my primary & secondary school life.
Friend, Conflicts, Quarrels, Talks...
thanks to all that, i've learned my lesson.
But, thing is repeating in my poly life now.
what am i going to do? *sigh. HATES!
maybe, all i have to do is to dont bother about anything.
should i really listen to adeline's advise? Just quit it?
*sigh; im so tired.

after seeing something on facebook,
i really remember something that im not suppose to be thinking.
what happened a few years back.
it's never easy to let it down.
i miss ....... .
why? i wants to know.
talk to me.

NIGHTS~

&takecares(:

2009-11-26T22:09:00.006+08:00

PROVING INSTEAD OF SOLVING-

stay away from me, i'm ain't a good friend.

i'm more suitable to be alone.

trying to get used to being alone.

just shut up and train hard.

my thoughts is worthless.

wth, im thinking too much again.

STOP HERE!

don't think anymore.

i'm so unhappy this few days. But, when you're beside me, somehow im happy.
you're special. It's weird of this thinking. But, thankyou-[:

2009-11-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

I'M NOT PREPARED-
No courage to take the next step

2009-11-24T09:42:00.004+08:00

LOST & INSECURE.

i'm selfish,

i'm a disspointment,

i'm a loser,

hearing and feeling different things,

i don't know what am i doing,

feels so regret of everything,

don't know what to do anymore.

i guess, i need professional counselling.

hope things end quickly.

breaked down-

2009-11-24T00:06:00.002+08:00

HEY YOU, JIEFANG,

just, SHUT THE FUCK UP-

i wants a brand new starts.

& f.o.n.d-

GOODBYE-

2009-11-23T14:36:00.007+08:00

Hellos(;

this is my 401th post. (:

so sick-

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-11-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

-I'm always&forever alone.
-No ones cares, no one bother, no one wants.
-my fated life... *sighhh. . .*

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-11-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
HAYDEN ONG MAO TAN!
NINEteen liao.
HAHAHA!
LAO BUNG!
Jiayou on trng & studies.
Rest well & take good care of urself(:
Don't injure urself when pushing urself.
fighting! <3

BYEBYES~

&takecares.

2009-11-04T14:51:00.003+08:00

Hellos :D

here to share something i've drawn yesterday & today! :D
cute not?
not i draw ugly lah, is the mousefault horr. hahaha!
BUT OVERALL,
still cute right! hahahaha.
talented art student la.
TSKTSK! hahahah =b

this is my COOL DRAWING:

well, today webcam with bev!
first time ! omg. hahaha.
also webcam-ed K. (: haa.

well, finished presenting. :)
and i felt that i'm hungry...
later still having training.
don't know if i should eat not. ahaha
since bus leaving at 5.20pm. & i don't have UT. hahah.
anyone wanna makan with me? :X
& do rj first hor. tired max.

&& did somethings(: hope it will success abit.
scare of failures, wants it to bond well.
everyone, agree and promise to true to urself, true to others.
no matter how angry we feels after reading,
stay chill & give yourself a break.
and slowly think and reflect on it.
be true to urself after reading. no baisness.
all of us are equal.
if not, it will never end easily.
open up to people, start to accept people, and i believe everything will be alright.
i shall have open up too i guess? haha.
BRAND NEW STARTS, ALRGHTS? :D
& let's spent more time together after the UTs & the races.(:
now, let's train hard & improve together.
ILOVEYOUGIRLSFOREVER:)
we're ONE, not ELEVEN!
takecare & rest well, don't get sick easily! :D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-11-02T10:17:00.003+08:00

Hellos:)

blogging again because i'm feeling low again.
When the pain get going, I'm starting to get lost.
nothing seems to get better, but it is the starting to the worse.
getting from bad to worse, from worse to worsen.
just like how my knee is getting worse. pain occurs frequently.

without a good starting, the jorney will be as bad as rotten egg.
without a good leader, everything will go in all directions.
without good participater, everthing will never go smooth.

so sick. nothing is ever gotta change.
Anyone leaves, i respect you. because i know how it feels like.

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-28T15:26:00.003+08:00

爱上自己！：D

如果每个人都能单单纯纯的做自己，
如果每个人都能不要乱讲别人的闲话，
如果每个人都能一起用工努力，
如果每个人都能一人让一步，
如果每个人都能合群，
如果每个人都有共同的目标，
如果每个人都能不要过于的敏感，
如果每个人都能做好自己的话，
那该有多好啊。
但是，这些都是不可能做到的事。
因为。。。
这世界上没有完美的人。
我自己都做不到了，
别指望别人能做到。

再见！

2009-10-28T14:21:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)

today is Entrepreneurship.
and i've a new group!
and, im lost! lost to the max!
and, im going to present soon.
all the best to me? hahah
anyway, i guess im just reading off from slides.
my english really is sucks.
all the best to me and my group!
hopes LESS questions :D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)

today was a unlucky day for me.
due to not enough of sleeps,
the same usual thing happened again.
head pain. breathing difficulties.

i overslept today.
therefore reach the class during the first break.
did some work. and i felt very guilty.
because i didn't help much.
and they seem like working very hard. :(
i wants to be hardworking.
but whenever i was in class, somethings seems to be blocking.
well, i left early cause of the pain.
didn't attend training too.
today totally sucks. :(
hate max. seriously.

therefore, today i will rest early,
tomorrow be on time. and i will participate in all meetings and discussion.
And i will go for training and must train hard.

sometimes i just hate the way things goes and how i acts on.
people says and acts differently.
agree? agree not?
im so sick of everything. fmL-
this few days, ain't happy at all.
needs a change in life now. right now.

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-26T01:29:00.003+08:00

Hellos:)

25oct; happy birthday Jeannie! :D
sorry, gonna give belated present agn :(

tomorrow having english olvl paper, not going rp :)
meeting adeline at night, i miss her!

& i love kun cute face. hahaha

`im sick of nonsense.
`bullshyt-ing
`stfu-
`&f.o.n.d-

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-17T16:57:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)

I'm super fat.
i cant feel that.
i don't know why.
but, i guess it's because of all my late dinner.
well, from next week onwards,
i will control myself.
and also try to exercise more :)
i wan a pull up! argh.
meeting susan now.
*ciao~

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-15T09:12:00.003+08:00

Hello:)

Suddenly thought of something.
from the starting till now, many things had changed.
After knowing each another for a quite a period of time,
all is able to see each another's true-self.
people after knowing it, actions will be taken.
people might not tolerate some people,
while others can communicate with that people.
communication is indeed important.
even though it's important, but personal is even important.
blaming people forever never solves problem.
always reflect on yourself instead of blaming.
nothing is perfect, therefore things will never goes the way u wants.
therefore the only way is to accept, if not, have to give in.
nothing will change unless yourself wants it for the better, and change for it.
it's time for me to reflect on myself... *ciao~

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-14T14:16:00.003+08:00

Hello:)

i'm sick of what i'm doing.
i don't wanna see it,
don't wanna hear it,
don't wanna know it.
because i know i will do unnesscary things.
maybe she will dislike it, ot maybe she will hate it.
tomorrow onwards, i shall stop it.
control myself, not letting my emotion and thoughts control me.
*cut lines. :X
i knew it at the start, but i still...
sigh* forget it and i shall stop right here. from today :)

:( later training, i got the funny feeling.
and i don't know why.
maybe it's because i didn't bring something.
or maybe, i'll be suffering later..
i don't know.
today's presentation, not bad i think..
today's 2nd break, susanSOH & eileenTAN make me lmao... * :D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

Hellos:)

♥ Amber (:

uh, drinking 2 cups of bubble today!
makes me feels uber fat can!
and, tomorrow i shall NOT drink bubble.
gabriel shall stop me from drinking!
tomorrow is friday, going out with eileenTAN nuer.
haha, and yup, if possible, might be buying clothes tomorrow.
we are lacking of clothes! argh..

this time, i know i have to sleep,
but why ain't im sleeping? cause im not tired.
haha, hope i'm able to survive tomorrow! :D
alright shall end here ! nothing much to blog abt also lah. haha

utterly dissappointed-
tired of every tries,
im giving up. seriously.
i just have to do what i think that it's right.
i wan all the people who i concern to be with me.
because without you girls, many things is impossible for me.
because i've treat you girls as ONE. :)
i don't wants to have the sad ending,
i want the happy ending.
i can give up She, but not you Girls.
let us stay strong, alrights? :( i believe we can do it.

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-07T14:33:00.001+08:00

Hellos:)

I'M TIRED!
and now class having presentation..
and it's like, ww3.
questions keep shoting around.
hopes later when my group present,
not much questions will be asked.
i need a rest asap.
and, i want to drink...
orea ice blend.
haha!

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hellos(:

some good and bad things...
i shall say the good thing first;
KUNNIE IS DISCHARGE FROM HOSPITAL TODAY!
just received his message :D
great! reach home can see him ler :D *happy wild smile! :D
the bad thing was...
im sick... :(
SORE THROAT, flu and slight cough...
now, abit of giddyness too! wth loh :(
sian to the max lahhh !
andd, last thing to be happy about...
im quite happy with this class.
no, or maybe this group today :D
i can talk to them! haaa.
alrights, end here .
hope tomorrow will be better ;D
& later self-training will be okay for me :)
tomorrow team dinner; sad that money is gone.. but, im fine with that!:)

how i wish to talk to you, but, my finger don't wants to do so...
and, i don't know why... :(
ims.

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hellos (:

having sore throat, slight flu, and slight cough.
hope i will not get sick before this saturday.
i'm trying my best to take care of myself.
argh, having giddyness now...
time for me to sleep.
today class arent that bad.
hope tomorrow will be better. & i like ellen (:
alright, shall end here.
hope kunnie will be home tomorrow!
self-train with db girls tmr after school:)

i wants to love you, but i cannot love you.

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-03T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hello readers(:

argh, me feels fat!
morning ate fishball noodle,
visit korkor, and ate bread.
reached home ate rice and also seaweed, +2 small waffles.
OMG, cannot believe it right!
but i ate that lot. argh.
i wants to SLIM down, but i just cant :X
haahahha! after next week, i gotta control xD
carbo-load first? LOLOL!!!
.
.
.

introducing a good friend of mines...
no matter what happens,
she will cheer me up,
listen to me with all my nonsense,
crap with me together,
play along with me,
paddle with me,
train with me,
pushing and encourage one another,
makes me laugh FOREVER,
no matter what she did, says or do.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME LAUGH! ALWAYS! HAHA!
seeya tomorrow :D
hope tomorrow will be fine,
and, yea, let's do our best alright, girls :)
LAI, we can do it!
SUSAN SOH SHI SHAN!!!
-First photo! Looks like what? ans: GIVE ME BREAD!!!

Second photo, Look like what? ans: praying to bread god for bread.

-Third photo, looks like what?!? ans: waaa, i saw breadddddd.

-Last photo, look like what??! ans: bread powerrrrrr.

what shall i do next, things will change, and i had changed right?
hope things will remains and not turn direction.
im afraid to pause and stop.

i don't wants to build a wall.

but sometime i just have to.

because all i can do is to treat you invisible.

so i will slowly let go...

that's what a happy ending always does.. (:

but, the most important thing is that she is happy:D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-10-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

Hellos(:

Several things to say:

KUNNIE;

recover fast! and stay strong yea!

the pain will be gone fast! :D

whenever sian, i'll entertain you!

haha, cause i miss bullying you!

faster come home to accompany me,

and also to listen to my nonsense!

i promise not to let u laugh so much :X

incase ur jaw drop agn. HA!

RECOVER FAST HOR!!!

INTRODUCE...

this guy is GABRIEL! :D aka gabby. haa!

Our CONVO... HAHA.
gabriel. says:
*whoa i hope i get nice classmates
Jiefang(: ; - says:
*ME TOO!
*:x
gabriel. says:
*haha i want chio bu
Jiefang(: ; - says:
*LOL
*EH
*u ar
*LOL
*hahaha
gabriel. says:
*haha what..
Jiefang(: ; - says:
*se lang
*LOL
gabriel. says:
*got chio bu good what
*haha no..
*must appreciate beauty
*LOL
*okay ignore that haha
Jiefang(: ; - says:
*LOL
*SEEE!
*i shall blogg that =x
gabriel. says:
*hahaha WTF
*you got a blog?

HAHA!

& my class is E35C! haha, so near to my ex-class; E35A.

& my module . . . :D

5/10 (Mon)
C111-1-E35C-AWeb and New Media CommunicationsVenue: E35CProblem: 1Day: 1Time: 08:30
6/10 (Tue)
G102-2-E35C-ACognitive Processes and Problem Solving IIVenue: E35CProblem: 1Day: 2Time: 08:30
7/10 (Wed)
B101-8-E35C-AEntrepreneurshipVenue: E35CProblem: 1Time: 08:30
8/10 (Thu)
T201-3-E35C-ACreative ConceptsVenue: E35CProblem: 1Day: 3Time: 08:30
9/10 (Fri)
T205-4-E35C-ADigital Media ArtsVenue: E35CProblem: 1Day: 4Time: 08:30

*first meeting conduct at LR-E2, 8.30am SHARP!

HAHA!

Extras;

today aint feeling good.

arm aching. sharp pain. shyt.

hope recover soon.

tmr going rp in the mornig to install the cs4 thingy.

and, after that meeting adeline at tamp for seoul garden! haha.

after that, me going hospital :) visit kun :D

saturday pacing. hope we all got the feel :)

alright, end here. lazy to type!

Lai, Stay Strong!

i hope that she will always be happy...

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-30T00:02:00.007+08:00

PRIS; CHEER UP!

i'll be akways here for you(:

when u need me, just text/call me.

i will listen to you(:

loveyou, always.

please cheer up and stay happy.

i want to see a smiling, happy, cheerful and dramatic priscilla.

HELLOS:)

me ain't feeling good either. haha.

but i believe friends will help me.

and i believe time makes the feeling away.

i believe i can put it down.

because im the one who pick it up.

watching the one happy is the most happy gift that i will receive.

all i need now is a part time job.

and the determination of paddling, studying, controlling my diet and mind.

there isn't much time left.

i want to go back to the jiefang that doesn't have someone in heart.

i want back my old-self. :)

and im gonna do it. & i believe i will get over it FAST!

all i need is friend's love; not the other love. :D

i love my teammates as well as my friends!

thanks for being there and i promise to be there when you need me.

this is what friends are for. :D

tomorrow having wet trng and gym trng.

and thursday going out with adeline i guess? to town :)

friday going gsing with adeline, khetwee and bryan, right?

& at night having dinner together plus dar and joseph.

saturday going out with aunt i think =x shopping!

sunday, going out with hayden? :D haa.

next monday, sch reopen. D:

i wants to win and get something.

i will prove what i've train isn't waste.

i wants everyone to be happy.

i wants people to trust me too.

so that i will have the trust to do thing to the best.

even though nth is perfect, but i wants this to be perfect.

i want WE to sucess...

*hopes pris be okay soon.

*hopes susan's niece will recover fast.

*hopes SHe will be with her (L) tdy and continue to forever.

*hopes everyone stay healthy and get stronger.

*hopes we are all ONE.

*hopes that thing will go well as what we thinks.

*hopes i will never over think ever again.

*hopes to see eileenTAN soon!:D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY;

27SEPT - PRISCILLA 'XIU-MAI' MUMMY :D

28SEPT - SHANE IDOL :D

-photos:
-group of ppl that is there that day! :)

-Present giving . . . haa

-(:

@cenileisure (:

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

HELLOS-

webcam with eileenTAN :)

Seriously, sometime i really don't know what at those adults are thinking.

2years ago vs today.

big difference right? and why they just don't get it!

wtf la, no people always lidat de la.

wanna pick on me, okay, i anything, but needa pick on my ahma anot?

SERIOUSLY HATE MY UNCLE LA. NB!

AND this is the reason i don't love going home.

and also dont love to stay at home without friends or relative or my brother coming.

today seriously sucks.

*please rest well & get well soon.(:

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-23T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hellos!

back from the late dinner!
and, my stomach pain after eating -.-
but bev told me that is my stomach got bad AIR!
at the moment when i having the pain, i thought it was food poisoning! LOL!
well, all i need to do is to rub it upwards and downwards from the center of my stomach :)
please fart and burp as many as possible!
so tomorrow the pain will be gone and me able to shyt! hahaha!
yea! me should go shower now, and rest! hahaha.
hope i can survive tomorrow!
LAI EH! hahahahah xD

*thanks bryan for the aussie cup! :)

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

Amber; Say with me now La chA tA Ta!

I just don't understand why.
i did something wrong?
sighh.
cant be bothered-
let's give in the best, okay?(:
i believe me, and i'll believe you(s)!:D

It's 8.25pm now...
meeting adeline, khet wee &bryan at around 9pm?
dinner kup supper. urgh, super hungry now!

yea! survived today!:)
but, can i still survive tomorrow? :(
aww, hope can survive tomorrow. :\

end here, no energy to type. haa! *just for joke!

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-22T18:37:00.005+08:00

Some Photos To share? :D haa.;

-Priscilla & her bf's birthday 'chalet' :)

Girls Team :) *Jamie&leon missing:(

-WildWilWet Outing :D

-(:

-My Favourite photo! SusanSohShiSan! SO CUTE :D

-Milkshake Vs Kobraper?

quite demoralised today...

was tired & feels abit weak...

well, sometimes thing just have to be done like this.

so that thing can goes the right way and also make a good end quick.

therefore, i'll shall follow and add in extra(s).

*sighh, hope for a better tomorrow.

come`on, creative ideas please keep coming! argh.

well, guess im gonna spent this whole friday doing it.

hope i can finish it in one day, & must be nicely done :)

arghh, money kept flying. *S.O.S!

haa, shall end here for now :)

yea, tomorrow will be better cause priscilla is going! :D

& meeting khetwee, bryan & adeline tomorrow for dinner kup supper?

haaaa :D

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-21T12:53:00.003+08:00

好烦啊！
每担自己一个人时，就会不断想着拿一些不快乐的事。

或者，是因为孤单，而想的事都是不好的。
而这一些事，都是一些让人更伤心的事。
想忘也忘不了，
想要不想，也不行。

想要完成的事，好像永远都不可能完成。
因为太懒惰了。
明明就知道不可能的事，也还是做了。
人的头脑就只有那么垂落吗？

说了那么多，我还是说不出我想说的事。
哈哈！还真是个笑话阿。。。

今天，在家，没事情做。
想完成几件事。但是，到现在，我还在看偶像剧！
天啊！我到底要什么时候才能完成呢？
阿！谁能来救救我啊！哈哈。

好了，就在这停！
想一想，明天还要去划船阿！累！哈哈。
可是，我喜欢。哈哈哈！
偶而用华文，看起来也还好的吗。哈哈。

2009-09-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D

went sensei today...
the feeling was... PAINFUL !
so, i dunwan any more treatment -.-
tomorrow it's hari raya!
wonders if i should go rp to gym..?
so i can see eileen & have lunch with her!
but at the same time. tmr mama is coming to ahma house.
um. haha. still thinking... :D
well. lazy to type! haa.
time for youtubee!
*i cut my hair today! :D

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-09-17T21:12:00.002+08:00

Hellos.

Ain't Happy,
Need to Stop,
No More.
Let's End it.
Don't Need it Anymore?
I Believe.
Byebye-
Need a Change,
Let's Start it!
Hellohello.
I'll try.(:

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-09-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :D

weee~ blogger finally okay? :D
can put colours ler? haha :D *happy
well, today im tired.. :(
my shoulder and arms hurts alot.
cant do shoulderpress, pushups, dips well.
as long as those pull and pushing things that needs the help of shoulder, me is struggling. haha.
well, im gonna visit a sensei soon? :D maybe tomorrow! haha
alright, today, after wet training, went gym training.
After gymming, sit for awhile to discuss about the team jersey?
and, hayden is designing now! :D hehe
After that, hayden and i fast fast batheeeee~
and went to causewaypoint with Shane & Yvonne :)
weee~ finally got the chance to sit on Shane's car :D
heard an english song, thinks not bad, but don't know the tittle -.-
went to buy movie ticket with hayden!
i brought dunno what ailen show while hayden buy 3ticket of gamers.
it's M18! and me can't buy :(
therefore did something that shane suggested.
i went in first, then after they were going in, hayden call me and i sneak into their theater. haha
well, suscessed! :D weee~ and. Gamer ah~ not bad laa :D
but during the movie, my stomach cried a few times.
& i kept eating my apple sweet ._. which makes me more hungry...
but bloody. scary, me will scare. LOL! *very cold somemore!
after movie, we went seprately :)
have mac fries with hayden. then hayden brought something at X-Craft.
Brought something for priscilla's birthday! :D haha. hopes she like it!
went home with hayden by bus. :)
received a call, makes me happy :]
friday another outing? cool! :D
alrights, end here for now :D
gonna rest noww!
NIGHTS!

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-09-11T00:07:00.001+08:00

tomorrow will be a fresh day.
everything will start to get serious
hoping that everyone of us will become ONE.
we will improve and get everything improve.
prove people wrong. let them know who we are!
come on come on! let's get to serious work.
remember what we said today girls :)
I LOVE U AND U LOVE ME? :D hahah! yeayea!
& i believe what i've said will never change :)
Likes & Dislikes.
im saying out what im thinking :) no false but all true.
hope to see all people tmr? :)
let's train hard.

weee~ meeting adeline tomorrow after trng! :D

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-09-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hellos :)

today im unhappy at all. seems like i've deproved.
but, i'll try hard to improve soon. :)
But, some questions pop out from my brain.
wonders why, how, and what.
will i? or will i not? yes? no?
what can i do..?
i dont wanna disappoint myself and her...
helping one another is a good way. i know.
but, will there be things that doesn't work?
always thinking on the dark side. wrong right?
well, it's dark for me today.
hopes there will be sun shine tomorrow? :)
alright, im hoping for a better for tmr :)
Lai, girls we can, get stronger! :D

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-08-30T14:28:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

tomorrow having wet training in the morning.
and if im not wrong, there is gym trng afterwards.
and i was wondering shall i skip tmr's gym training and go back my secondary sch..
seriously miss those teachers :(
and, at the same time, can ask my previous english teacher for help!
as my english oral is coming in less then 2mths times,
i need help on my papers. and if i go back, i might ask for SOS! :D
but, i don't wanna miss training too! :(
training is important. I KNOW! but, o lvl is impt too! I KNOW TOO!
but that might be a excuse for me to skip training and go back my sec sch.
ahhh! how how how? -_- si ren eh! why must it be tmr lei.
training..? or .. CVSS..?
shall discuss tonight!
*solution: going back CVSS.

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-08-21T20:13:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

now blogging in NYP!
in triffany's class. so cold lohs D:
using her class mac. cool eh! the screen damn big. see until eye pa jiao. LOLS.
anw, came NYP is to celebrate triffany's birthday lohs.
budden the actual day is TOMORROW LAH!
22August! triffany becoming AUNTIE ler. 18...
and im still at the age of 17.. HALF!
nevermind! 3mths more and im 18 ler okay! :D
i wanna go clubbing eh! never go before sio. *shy, LOL.
ahh! triffany came in interupt me! and i forgot wad i wanna type D:
this week... TWO person birthday! :O
KARENN & TRIFFANY! :D both bian lao ler ;D
end of the year, people keep birthday. lols. scary sia.

T_T sobsob. im hungry how. budden triffany is not hungry.
OMG! it's 8.24 now. hahahaha will mummy miss me? =x
tomorrow having training! wet training! ;D
hopes tomorrow wont rain yea ;D
ohya! saw the webmail and know that i was in the sava thingy.
happy of course lah! budden i still have the chance of not gettiProxy-Connection: keep-alive
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a sit.
therefore, JIEFANG! fighting! ahahahaha!
&& tomorrow susan and leon having 10km race!
fighting! hayden and i going to visit them yea?
seniors, susu aka ahgong, leon and people who were paddling for the 10km, JIAYOU&GDLUCK:D
tomorrow shall i take banana down for karenn and susan? HAHA! =x

okay shall end here.
using the mac keyboard, feel like so shuang lidat. hahah!
it's better then the acer keyboard lahs!
acer, LAN EH =x and im the person using acer. LOL!
okayokays ;D

*seriously dunno how to listen the songs in triffany's class.*faints.
shall upload some photo asap? :D
TRIFFANY AR! when wanna teach me ur technic?!?!?! X(

BYEBYES~
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2009-08-18T14:09:00.004+08:00

HELLOS :D

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KARENN!
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to karenn,
happy birthday to you! :D
all the best yo! ;D
treat us junior good jiu hao :X
hahahaha!

um, whose birthday is next? ha!

BYEBYES~

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2009-08-14T13:27:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D

woot, today ain't a good day ahead i guess.
later having training, should be excited.
cause i can build up my muscle again.
but, im not excited but sian.
only 4girls will be going for training later.
furthermore, im feeling so tired now, giddy(abit).
today's problem statement sucks!
all of the members in our team can't do. DIE :D
okay, shall anyhow whack later (:

sometime really wonders why people can't face the reality.
but not facing the reality might be a good thing sometimes.
i need a break, sleep is needed for my brain to stop thinking too much!
quote: *smile even though it's breaking, -peanutbutterOH.

BYEBYES~

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2009-08-13T15:51:00.002+08:00

Hellos:D

im tired...
need a good rest!
later needa go for a talk,
then needa go physio for my wrist.
after that going home alone.
alone eh! cool! ;)
shall take bus instead of walking,
hate the heat ):
now, finish rj most impt!

cant understand why people can act like that.
*faints. never behave like that! X(

BYEBYES~

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2009-08-11T20:32:00.004+08:00

HELLOS :D

i dunno what had happened.
i cant see those colours that can change fonts.
argh, my blog gonna get more colourless. and it is making me moodless.

&just to realise, blogging only when i felt moody,
is this somewhere that i can only express my ture and real feeling & thinking out?
my god. i need more spaceeeeeee.

nowadays i keep having those not good feeling.
as in there were things that bothers me.
And also some sort like compress my heart.
still remember one of the night, i suddenly have difficulties in breathing.
heart pump super fast that i can feel the pumping of it as if i am having heart attack.
So moody. what am i suppose to do to get rid of this mood.
dunno what's the problem, dunno what had happened.
nobody is there for me to talk to, no listening ears, no advise.
how long can i still struggle to get through..?
can i really survive like this?

I am a super suay person.
secondary i didn't meet the correct person..
now, in poly i still didn't meet the correct person..
joining db because i thought triffany is joining.
after joining, something inside db makes me don't wanna leave and change to hiphop.
now, the thinking strike me again...
joining db is it correct or it is another regret?
not that i don't like the sport, it is something else.
words can't explain the feelings...
it seems that nothing can help me...
thinking of it everytime makes me unhappy and irritated.
why can't people cant just kick away those bad habits.
no pain, no gain. only allows improvement, disallow deprovement.
getting somethings that you wants with hardworking.
if getting something without paying out those sweats and hardwork, wth is that?
no wants would wants his/her hardwork to get shared with people that doesn't deserve it.
am i always the one who is the problem and seeing things wrongly?
or am i not suitable for the situation.
i need a change in myself, mylife and myeverything.
being quiet is good, even though it really bored me.
but it is better then tlaking more and making ownself unhappy,angry.
people like me must as well die off from this planet, this earth.
me, a useless bum... no one likes.
shyt, the messy thinking was in my head now.
stop, i need a break from everything.
you are causing me stress.
i can take it no more.
please.. stop.
maybe we just aren't suitable to be like that......

Jiefang needs someone to chat with,
Jiefang needs someone to be her listening ears,
Jiefang needs someone to support her,
Jiefang needs someone to encourage her,
Jiefang needs someone to help her,
Jiefang needs someone to pull her up whenever she fell,
Jiefang needs someone to understand her abit,
Jiefang needs someone to KNOW her.
BUT... is there really someone that really knows her?
SHYT. fml-
now nothing seems to get through in my brain,
no more brain cells, need something to cheer me up.
when i need someone, where is everyone?
earth is spinning, but i am still at the same place, not improving.

S.O.S!
H
E
L
P
M
E
P
L
E
A
S
E
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tomorrow having training...
hope i can survive tomorrow w/o susan's present. :(

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-08-09T12:46:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!:D
sorry hayden! D:
today needa spend time with family!:)
tomorrow then go out! okay?! :D
num spree? :D haha.
or.. pastemina ? :X
hahaha!

BYEBYES~
&takecares.(:

2009-08-08T21:04:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

T_T Jiefang is semi-sick...
down with cough and flu. my god!
giddness kept visiting me me nowaday.
jiefang needs to get well soon.
holiday for me to get well?
haha, but i wanna go out!
num got 50% discount! :D
wanna get myself a slipper and a bag?
if possible, a shirt too yo!
haha, i shall end here :D
wonder if i should create a twister account =\
needa study for UT3 & english 'O'lvl too! D:

BYEBYES~
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2009-07-31T10:50:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

im blogging again..
today pon mathe for the 2nd time..
can't understand why isit always PRABABILITY. hate it.
and, i ate my 3th cup noodle er since yesterday.
jiefang are u a pig or a monster? keep eating.
haha, but heng is got training later! needa train hard:D
more sweat!! burn more fats! lai ar! needa get stronger!
ohya! say about gym, i forgot to write the notebook.
& jiefang is slpy now. tired. rawrr!
later 2nd break, eating with hayden:D
then meet leon to CWP! for the fsb(:
Jiefang is broke today. sobsob.
argh! i needs those study feeling & diet feeling to get back to me real soon!!

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-28T13:18:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :D

today i am super tired.
and i dunno why! tsk.
i had been sleeping for quite a long hours!
and, i dont understand why am i still so tired.
well, today is communication, and i can't concentrate. omg.
today ate quite alot of food man! omgs D:
today im aching as yesterday training had added weight and my body aren't used to it.
furthermore, tomorrow have training! wee, *kaixin :D
brought food for idol just now & joey ! :)
omg, owe ppl money A_A scare forgot ! argh.
later meeting hayden to buy glove for gym-ing!
if not, my hand is have many bubbles! hehe xD
omg, i feel like shyting . :X opps! haa, end here !

my lappy finally recovered! *muackmuack.
i will takecare you well :X haha!
don't fall sick again.
cause it helpdesk very PACK sio!
hahaha xD
now is mouse spoil. *faints

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-26T22:11:00.001+08:00

HELLOS :D

Jiefang is shagg-ed out.
Jiefang is super fat.
Jiefang is getting fatter everyday.
Jiefang is aching now.
Jiefang needs more training.
Jiefang needs more improvement.
Jiefang needs to endure food.
Jiefang needs to study hard.
Jiefang needs her laptop to recover fast.
Jiefang hates herself.

BYEBYES~
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2009-07-24T11:31:00.004+08:00

HELLOS :D

jiefang pon-ed today's mathe lesson :)
& just woke up from a 40mins slp. haa, super tired!
*joanne wore the elmo's shirt!! haa =b
feel as if i went to a dreamland and tour one round and came out.
omg, feel like shyting now. but im too lazy to move! haaa.
abt 2hrs more, needa go for training..
wonder if i can make it anot.
took the facebook horoscrop thingy and it says that...
i will be aching.. wth lohs. omg.. bu xiang de yu gan! haa
anw, i think that this is somehow like my first time pon-ing class man.
and, joanne is super lucky to have my first time can. hehh.
and, she said "you pon class just to slp lor!" hhaa.
i feel abit bad cause she pon with me but end up i didn't entertain her much. SORRY!
alright, shall stop typing ! post photo next time :) -sch internet lag!
*ytd when bugis with hayden she she brought a cap! :)

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-23T10:18:00.006+08:00

HELLOS :D

RANDOMS PHOTOS!
-yesterday enterprise's lesson which we suppose to wear formal :)
and weiwen & i were late for school.
we called eileen & meili to come find us
but jolene called and asked them to go up as faci is finding them
it's not fun!
because i hate enterprise!
but overall, doing skit,
quite okay? :D
dont like the grouping after all ;(

2009-07-22T13:05:00.004+08:00

HELLOS :)

i seriously hate this kind of feeling.
But why does it keep coming into me.
I seriously think that i should work alone.
I rather faces problem myself then in a group.
perhaps team-work doesn't suits me.
can't work in team, think pairs doesn't suits me too.
best is working alone as im the person that people cant get along with.
im not clever nor good. im just nothing.
wonder when will i just fade off from the little earth.
wonder when will i changed into a better person.
wonder when will i start to get serious.
i hate ppt. hate presentation.
everythings seem to left mt out.

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-21T15:20:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :)

everyday thinking of things that should not be in my brain.
wonder why am i thinking such things.
why am i born out with this personalities and charaters.
simpliy think that i should not be exist in the world.
communication is a problem to me...
im felt that i am always alone no matter where.
having this thoughts of mines is it wrong?
or maybe it is the fact, just that i had not confirm as there isn't edvience.
thinking of quitting & joining others...
but, why can't my heart just be more evil and make the choice.
seriously lost in the the mind of maze...
jiefang, stop it. i hate it.

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-20T09:16:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :D

jiefang isn't in a good mood today.
don't know why bad mood. no reasons, nth happened.
maybe the tiredness & aching in my body is making me emotional.
thinking of many stupid things that i should not be thinking.
maybe i shall try to change my personalities.
shall be more quiet, just ignore things that doesn't involve me.
just do things and try not to fight back and say back anythings.
maybe with those changes, nothing will be happening.
just keep my real self distant from other people.
keeping the real self inside, doing things alone.
stop commenting, complain nothing and keep things to myself.
shan bother about anything and not crapping & lameing.
do things seriously and work hard to achieve my goals.
do the best and also win my ownself.
exceeding my limitation, pushing myself over my limits.
train hard, improve fast, prove myself.
stay strong, don't be weaken.
don't get affected by the surrounding things.
Things will come out better if im quiet.
the earth is turning and jiefang is trying hard to change.
hate myself.
i just hate you, jiefang...

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-15T10:38:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D

I did a survey during enterprise.
BUT, it is part of the activity in enterprise.
faci say got CE points take. *happy :D
And, well, after testing...

My top 3 categories/themes are: Social, Realistic, Artistic.

Social..
people have high interest in other people and are sensitive to the needs of others. They perceive themselves as liking to help others, understanding others, and having teaching abilities. Social people value social activities, social problems, and interpersonal relationships. They use their verbal and social skills to change other people’s behaviour. They are generally cheerful, scholarly, and verbally oriented.

Realistic..
people are characterised by competitive/assertive behaviour and by interest in activities that require motor coordination, skill and physical strength. People oriented toward this role prefer situations involving “action situations” rather than tasks involving verbal or interpersonal skills. They like to take a concrete approach to problem-solving rather than relying on abstract theory. They tend to be interested in scientific or mechanical rather than cultural and aesthetic areas.
Social people seem to satisfy their needs in teaching or helping situations. In contrast to investigative and realistic people, social types are drawn more to seek close interpersonal relationships and are less apt to engage in intellectual or extensive physical activity.

Artistic..
people value self-expression and relationships with others through artistic expression. They dislike structure, prefer tasks involving personal or physical skills, and are more prone to expression of emotion than others. They are similar to investigative people, but are more interested in the cultural-aesthetic than the scientific.

Im quite shocked that the artistic wasn't the first yet it is Socal. haha.

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-14T08:56:00.010+08:00

HELLOS :D

*Photo For The Day! :D

-SUSU, GET WELL SOONN!!!

lalala, im in class now, in the same team as Fitri, Jerome and "lily-eileen". hahas.

Having a new faci today as paoma rao is absent,

and, this new faci is super funny can. haha!

he kept saying the word: ohh,okay!

haha, and, yea, i wants to blog because i promise myself to blog!

haha, ig not my blog is gonna scold me in my dream again. hah.

Last saturday went pasir ris to bbq, it's the rpdb bbq!

and, yea, it rains 3times... and stupid, i did not eat much =x

therefore have to buy noodle home to eat :)

and, happy that i took photo with my idol, shane. &minghee. haha.

no sharon D= she really hide! sobsob.

and, i shall post some photos :D

Random Photos! :D

-Hamster with guitar! :O

-Minghee & Me (:

-With Yvonne! (:

-my idol`Shane & Me :D

-RPDB Girls :D

- The Junior Girls :D *Dian & Small amirah not there D=

And sunday, i woke up late ! eat noodle and went out.

went smk to meet meili, alicia and weiwen.

we went kbox-ing. :D and, haha, yea, not bad (:

next tim shall go the amk there for kbox-ing, $17.50!

and i eat nuggest, chips and a cup of blueberry drink!(:

and, yea, i didn't bring camera cause forgot, *late liao mah, gan jiong!

and we didn't take photo D=

but i believe there will be a second time :X haha!

-Kids! haha :X

alrught it's time to do work. :D

stopped here !

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-14T08:04:00.000+08:00

HELLOS AGAIN :D

I JOGGED YESTERDAY !
AND TODAY WILL BE GOING TO GYM :D
WITH HAYDEN AND SUSAN.
BUT SUSAN NOT FEELING WELL.
SO HOPE THAT SUSAN WILL GET WELL SOON!
IF NOT LATER I WILL WANTS HER TO GO HOME!
OKAY, END HERE :D

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D

The Apple In My Eyes(:

today went gym with susan and amy.
before going gym, we run at the stadium track.
and,shyt, my leg muscle cramp -.-
susan ran 11round, amy 9round and i 10rounds.
after that, we went gym and do some stations.
AND, SHYT AGN.
i think too long didn't train, my mouse kns again.
damn sad and angry with it.
i need training real soon!!! argh..
and, yea, after today, ut, gym, i feel damn chui, tired!
tomorrow having db bbq. im the commitee and i din do much things.
no people asked me too. omgosh, i feel guilty!
alright, end here for now(:

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-10T13:44:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :D

Yesterday went hayden house.
i think we had fun.
wanted to study for UT,
but, end up doing nth! but MSN-ING! hahas.
and, hayden was getting better! wahahah =b

today's lesson is math and it's on probability.
and, seriously, i think it sucks.
and futhermore, i didn't do anything!
firstly, don't understand the worksheet,
secondly, they didn't ask me to focus. haha!
i am super distracted can!
and, later having science UT test.
omg, CHUI can! confirm plus chop stamp.
hope ppt will end as early as possible.
so i wan study for my UT test! wahaha .
and, yea, after UT, meeting susan to go to gym at hougang.(:
haha, no matter what, today i must go! rawr! haha.
yeaa, i think i shall end here for now!
going to present soon i think.
and i am only presenting the 3slides which is intro, problemstatement and content.
haha, and, hate it, my eye super pain can!
i think my eye 生东西！真是气死人阿！
somemore i am wearing contact lens. and i keep put the lens drop.
and, left eye super blur! argh. sobsob.
okay, end here! *thanks gabby for sending me the 2ne1 song(:
& gabby chinese name was ... 陈智恒！哈哈哈哈！

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

WAHh-DEN!

REMEMBER VISIT DOCTOR!

REMEMBER EAT MEDICIAN!

REMEMBER TO REST WELL!

REMEMBER TO EAT PORRIAGE!

REMEMBER TO SLEEP MORE!

PLEASE GET WELL SOON! :D

MISS YOU; LOVE YOU!

TAKECARE!

SATURDAY WE HAVE TO GO TOGETHER!

2009-07-08T23:02:00.004+08:00

HELLOS :D

hey people, i realise that this week is a damn suay week for me and some db girls.
Firstly, Susan, she didn't get a good grade and also worried for her UT.
Secondly, Hayden she was super sick and having high fever up and down. *worried!
Thirdly, Amy today suddenly have gastric pain. *worried!
Lastly, Jiefang is super emo and upset ever since monday. and lacks of sleep.
And yea, suppose to go for gym today, but many people is so suay, end up didn't go.
All of us seem like our spirit had flied to korea and left the zombie moving bodies.
Well, today I have been trying to pay attention in class.
Trying to understand and do the problem statement as well as the worksheet.
Trying my best to present well during presentation.
Trying my best to do well for UT because i studied yesterday night.
And, well, all it fails. my brain isn't working very well as im super slpy.
I just hopes that tomorrow will be a better day for all of us.
After blogging, i have to go to bed real fast!
i can imagine now, laying on the bed, few minutes later, im spirit fly away.
okay, stop reading from here, things below ain't worth reading(:

I seriously don't understand girls.
They can be really nice at times but changes their attitude after a few sentences.
not replying me, not giving me a reason, not being nice.
i really wonder what can i do so that both of us can be happy.
wonder if i should just give it up and concentrate on other things.
wonder if i shall continue to trying to get closer to you, knowing you well.
but it all seems that whatever i do, it's just a waste of effort.
she don't understand what i'm think,
she don't know what i am trying to do or says.
all she thinks about things that doesn't involve me.
super regret of stepping into this trap. i hope never again i will repeat this mistake.
the first impression is always wrong.
it started with me wanting to know you and; it ended with me wanting to leave instead...
couldn't i just get a person that can really be with me and share things with me?
does looks really matters that much?
i am started to be discouraged again and again.
hated how i was born and looks like.
but, still, nothing is gonna change.
fml.

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-08T01:15:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D'

This WAHh-SAN can be so CUTE! haha.

DA PI GU ! :D

well, people! this is the first everytime i studied for UT!

omg, cognitive somemore, chimology cann!

and, yea, today went sheng siong with amy, ric, raymond and afiq.

And, yea, it's super big. haha, we look out for the price for this saturday bbq.

and, yea, i was laughing through out can! omgosh.

Ric did a super funny sotong action that makes amy & me laugh.

and than raymond kicked a cart andhe spologise to the cart.

again, amy and i laugh again! i seriously can't stop laughing.

well, i hope that this saturday will goes well! and yea, fun too! cam-whore :O

and, stupid, today i didn't run! wth right! fat fat! omgosh D:

well, tomorrow after UT, going to gym with susan, amy & hayden(:

yea, i think i shall stop blogging here. too tired!

*shall upload photos of susu next time!

xue te, tmr enterprise, it sucks!

BYEBYES~

&takecares.(:

2009-07-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

HELLOS :D

in school today, again, hate cognitive forever.
but, thanks jerome for doing the presentation.
i felt so useless. as in i didn't help anything in cognitive module.
and, wednesday it's cognitive UT! wtf.
i have to study tonight and tmr night.
and, i have to to run later to release myself.
today's mood aren't good. totally moodless.
2person didn't replied my msn. worried for one.
know that she's feeling sad and couldn't help her.
totally felt to useless, restless, and not worth living.
were hoping she could share somethings with me even though i don't know anythings.
at least i can comfort her or do anythings to make her happy.
alright, i shall not blog about that, no more feelings. no mood.

WELL, today is susan soh's birthday! haha, sooo...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSU`WAHh-SAN! :D
turn 19 ler, getting older and getting cuter! hahas (:
hopes that she's happy forver! haha .
and, yea, i love rpdb juniors girls (:
hey girls, i love you girls forever okay! haha.
when we wanna self-train together ?! :D
miss training with you girls,
miss the time we encourage each other. (:
pls meet up as a group soon alrights!

alrights, shall end here for now. have to listen to presentation!
and chat with wahden. (:
*changed my msn's chatting background.
think no more.
i am just to lazy.
jiefang wants to go home.
hopes that i will run later on. `hate sun&heat!

BYEBYES~

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2009-07-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

HELLOS :D

haha, today super free. so can keep blogging. =b
well, weather isn't very good.
now the sky is super dark, windly and seem like it is going to run.
and, yea, suddenly remember of english o lvl.
im re-taking this year. and yea, i have not revise it.
now is july already! going to retake it very soon.
oral first, as CHIJ. hah, boring! and, scare too.
Im gonna improve my english by speak english oftenly.
and also, to cut down on my singlish. haha.
need to find secondary school teacher for help! okay.
~~i shall upload tokbox & some webcam photos! (:~~
there is some problem in the uploading photos again! argh, again.

BYEBYES~

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